Kikastrophe

Like was stated in the preceding comment, I will n...

2012-02-20T01:31:46.424-07:00

Like was stated in the preceding comment, I will never claim to completely understand what you are experiencing. And I think you should be wary of anyone that does (make that claim). However, you have a Heavenly Father who is always there, and friends who are willing to listen and try, to the best of their ability, to understand. Posts like this help us to understand things that are probably

I will never, ever, claim to know 100% what you ar...

2012-02-17T23:02:56.072-07:00

I will never, ever, claim to know 100% what you are going through. Because these trials are different for everyone...

But, I think I can understand some of the emotions you feel because of it.

Everyone struggles, but some of us are less-fortunate and struggle with a brain chemistry that prevents us from seeing, understanding, and rejoicing in the things that everyone else

Doubtful that you're borderline. It may be eas...

2012-02-12T21:47:59.579-07:00

Doubtful that you're borderline. It may be easy to think you are though. You do hyper-react to a lot of things. The lack of entrance to a psycho ward or psycho pills would be strongest I think for not being borderline. Borderline people from the sounds of it are barely able to function in life. You've accomplished stuff in life. My advice: stop looking for ways to explain why there's

*my sense of worth or sense of self

2012-02-08T13:30:19.370-07:00

*my sense of worth or sense of self

As someone who has some codependent tendencies mys...

2012-02-08T13:27:56.707-07:00

As someone who has some codependent tendencies myself, I think the most useful realization I ever had was that no one is responsible for my happiness except myself. And God--but only inasmuch as I choose to be happy.

Once I had that realization, rather than looking to other people or other situations to make me happy, I looked to myself. Which isn't to say that relationships aren&

Speaking from personal experience, I think maybe y...

2012-02-08T13:18:26.762-07:00

Speaking from personal experience, I think maybe you shouldn't be so quick to label yourself as one thing or another. But it's good that you're doing some investigating and recognizing some things that you struggle with. I remember doing some research on BPD once and realizing that I have some traits in common with BPD. It was helpful for me to think about those things, target them,

A few phrases jumped out: being hyper alert to sig...

2012-02-07T10:19:34.136-07:00

A few phrases jumped out: being hyper alert to signs of rejection or not being valued, powerfully connected to the people close to them and terrified by the possibility of losing them, when they want to hold, they claw, and generally view the world as malevolent and dangerous.

I don't think you're borderline. You're not into drugs or sex, nor are you so extreme in your

2012-02-07T10:18:42.613-07:00

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And I'm glad that you had friends and never ha...

2012-02-06T00:21:40.067-07:00

And I'm glad that you had friends and never had to seek acceptance. I'm happy you have yet to go through not having a place to belong, or feeling unloved.

I'm sad that because you don't understand it, you feel the need to attack.

You proved my point exactly.

As for the 'crap' i throw up about my pare...

2012-02-06T00:12:32.930-07:00

As for the 'crap' i throw up about my parents, I said: "I am coming to grips that I still have emotional scars from my childhood and interactions with my parents still reflect problems that have gone unfixed."

Just for the record.

I'm sorry that this offended you for some reas...

2012-02-06T00:09:14.489-07:00

I'm sorry that this offended you for some reason. Its for reasons like this, when I bring up things that I feel, or things that are personal, and get reactions like yours fully of defensiveness and anger, rather than love, that makes me feel invalidated. Just because you love someone doesn't mean you validate their feelings or emotions that you feel. Everyone is different. If you don&

I'm sorry... I've been reading your blog a...

2012-02-05T23:17:36.483-07:00

I'm sorry... I've been reading your blog and becoming more and more upset and I feel this time that I have to comment.

We've been telling you for years that you need to stop buying your friends and it only now clicks?

The post that talked about how no one ever made you feel validated hit me like a knife. As though all the time and effort we spent in loving you

And that is exactly why you should do it. Get outs...

2012-02-05T21:47:59.392-07:00

And that is exactly why you should do it. Get outside your comfort zone a little bit. Finding alone time and being ok with it is wonderful sometimes. We shouldn't be completely alone or completely with people at all times. Balance, young padawan. :) You're strong. You can make it through hard things. Just trust yourself and your Heavenly Father. Things will work out. You are not a

@mostlyprobably Haha. I saw you facetiously argui...

2012-02-05T21:34:01.307-07:00

@mostlyprobably Haha. I saw you facetiously arguing with him on my FB about milk. lol.. I figured you knew who he was.

I think dates with myself might be fun.. i just.... don't like doing things myself. A weird nervous tick at the thought of being alone.

:/

Gah. I had a bad feeling about Nathaniel from litt...

2012-02-05T20:25:49.196-07:00

Gah. I had a bad feeling about Nathaniel from little snippets you have written in your blog before. Nothing terrible, just little irksome things. But that's kind of besides the point (for this comment, anyway).

Your blog reminded me of Julia Roberts' character on Runaway Bride. If you haven't seen it, rent it. And purple is a good start. Next up, try to figure out what

This post was intresting to read. Something I'...

2012-02-05T20:11:31.061-07:00

This post was intresting to read. Something I've known about for a while. Sel realization is greatest hope for change. Nathaniel was right: probably why he left. Real friends won't feel comfortable being the target of a co-dependent person, because for the target, as it is for the co-dependent person (on some level) they don't know if it's real or if the feelings behind it are

This is something I've had trouble with for mo...

2012-02-05T19:51:07.914-07:00

This is something I've had trouble with for most of my life. Didn't realize it until freshman year, and I'm still struggling with figuring out who I am. Just know you're not alone, and that things will get better!

I really like 5 and 10!!

2012-02-05T14:48:02.992-07:00

I really like 5 and 10!!

The fourth and fifth are cute! You would look cute...

2012-01-28T22:44:35.500-07:00

The fourth and fifth are cute! You would look cute in any of them though!

Every person you meet, that becomes more than a sh...

2012-01-27T23:04:19.707-07:00

Every person you meet, that becomes more than a shadow, becomes a person, becomes such because you lend part of yourself to them. And whether they like it or not, a part of them goes to you too. The cool about it is that the more pieces we leave in people, we still have pieces left within us. Think of the teeth of a shark. If one falls out, another is there to fill its place. Now, some may reject

An anonymous tip from someone who used to know you...

2012-01-27T22:51:47.886-07:00

An anonymous tip from someone who used to know you:

You're a wonderful girl who tries really hard to go out of her way to help everyone around her. Who is smart, kind, and caring. Driven to always be doing something, striving to never lag behind anyone else. You're accomplished in many ways, yet seek to always do better. You desire to serve others, and have a great amount of

Looking at the average person nowadays, why would ...

2012-01-27T22:40:36.311-07:00

Looking at the average person nowadays, why would you want to be normal anyway? ;-)
On a another note, your desire to change can lend itself to the action to change. You recognize the rubbish in your life, you change it, and while you may never be "normal", you could positively say later that you're better than normal, you're exceptional.

5 or 12 from the top

2012-01-27T22:36:31.541-07:00

5 or 12 from the top

I've always been fascinated by this topic, but...

2012-01-22T20:57:52.284-07:00

I've always been fascinated by this topic, but I am so awful at having one sided conversations. I am much better at sitting down and talking things out with someone. However, about 5 years ago i took an institute class back in California on the Pearl of Great Price. I had lots of questions about this exact topic because I wondered about Cain and the kind of person he was in the pre-mortal

5 or 7.

2012-01-22T12:19:37.187-07:00

5 or 7.